had a fucking dizzy spell that lasted thru both lectures
felt nauseous and crap
almost went home
but i had to stay
had to go for interview
i wanted it badly
then,
stayed in sick bay to rest for abt an 1hr
some rehcaet just refused to leave me alone
damn it

felt better went back for lessons
pw, chem, orion
den had interview
the teacher asked
"what expectations do you of yrself from h3-star"
so my answer
"to be FRANK, i wanted the experience"
i realized i wasn't fully committed yet
i had doubts whether i shud miss CTs
but now at least i wont have to worry abt that
cause my H3-Star changed to E-Star
hopefully i still have the chance

it just wasn't meant to be
i m not regretting it
i had second thoughts before
i agreed myself
cause i wasn't sure i can handle H3
i hope got it right this time

the interviewers were nice ppl though
one was really concerned whether i shud take up h3.
he convinced me to convert
one was teacher-IC of SPARKS
really nice teacher

i will settle down soon.
and be HAPPY :)

almost 4 months into year 2008
i haven really settled down yet
jc life is so unlike sec sch
firstly you have to stride from classroom to classroom for lessons
secondly you have to attend mass lectures which is so fking hard to concentrate
thirdly no more having lunch as a class after sch which equals no more fun

i like my subj combi
i hope i can like my class better
i hope i can cope with sch work yet find time to play
damn it i flunked phy VA ytd
say byebye to 10% of promos
there's 3 tests coming up nxt week

shoot me.
harmoc 3 times a week
maybe even more if cannot cope

theres H3-STaR & Orion
although its still a question of whether i will really finally confirmly get in
wad if i cant handle.
wad if committing myself to these cause me to lag behind my H2s.

i shld stop worrying. soon.